I’ve actually had to scrap this entire post and start again several times. Y’see, when writing I have a tendency to go off on tangents, which is a big no-no apparently. It doesn’t stop me from doing it anyway though. But when it came to writing this post, the tangent consumed me and ended up becoming, like, 80% of the whole post. So I thought sod it, let’s start again.
Why am I telling you any of this? Well, it kind of goes hand in hand with the entire theme of this post, and how having trouble expressing yourself outside of your defined parameters can affect your blog, for better and for worse.
The initial premise of this post was to focus on the positives and negatives of my introvert personality type in relation to my blogging experience. How I have a lot of time on my own to think and work on my posts, but struggle to promote and connect with other readers and writers. And how each of those can affect my output and motivation toward the project as a whole.
Fairly quickly, the whole post started to derail into talking about how people broadly interact with the internet based on how extroverted or introverted they were. Reading it back though, it felt like I was making a lot of generalisations about people. And so, the more I wrote, the less confident I was in the growing beast I continued work on.
It was all very ironic in a sense. I was making points about how extroverts had a “post and forget” mentality to putting things online, while introverts are much more likely to overthink and over-edit themselves, which is exactly what I ended up doing, losing more confidence in what I was writing the more I wrote.
I think it was around this point I started devolving into talking about Twitch streamer and TikToc, which is why I decided to just delete the whole thing and start from scratch.
The thing I was getting hung up on was the fact that a lot of people who do put themselves out there on the internet on services like Twitch and YouTube still can be very introverted people, but still have the confidence to do that kind of thing anyway. As I started to think of more and more counterexamples to my own original point, I started to wonder what my original point had been. It was like I was wrestling with the subject matter more than writing a thought piece for my blog.
So on my second attempt, I went back to my original premise for the post to focus on the subject of written blogs and tried to keep a lid on it throughout. Originally, my thoughts on the relationship between personality type and a personal blog found light in two ways: through the subject and through promotion (both intentional and otherwise).
Looking through WordPress’s discover function, I came to the conclusion again that an introvert was more likely to talk about niche subject matter such as anime or movies, while an extrovert was more likely to cover thins like Travel and self-help. Leading me to want to drawn conclusions that the kinds of things other introverts want to read about are things written about by other introvert personality types.
Which would mean that blogs run by extroverts are more likely to make blogs with a broader appeal, making less granular, easier to consume posts about things that everyone can relate to, not just the nerds who want to spend a day inside laying video games or watching anime. Coupled with the extroverts natural ability to relate and reach out to other bloggers, they would have a much easier time making their blog into something huge and visited by a lot more people.
Then that familiar problem reared its head once again, the more I wrote about this, the more I felt like I was generalising and marginalizing the people who didn’t fit into this pigeonhole I was creating for them. Here’s the thing, I don’t actually know that much about the other bloggers I follow on WordPress. Sure, I read their posts and follow them on social media, but I can only make assumptions about their personalities outside of that.
Is it fair of me to assume that they’re introverts like myself because they’re able to churn out massive amounts of content day after day? Sure they must be dedicating a lot of time to being on their own an focusing on writing. Am I wrong? I don’t know, but my own personality wants to stop me from making that sweeping generalisation without any kind of evidence to back it up.
To get back on tangent, the original assumption that caused my first post to break down was that people with an extrovert personality type would be more likely to put themselves out there on video-based platforms like Snapchat, TikTok and Twitch. But after thinking about it, I know for a fact that a lot of the people out there who use those platforms aren’t extroverts at all. And like me, agonise about how they contribute things to the internet and how they’ll be perceived.
My original assumption about my struggles of being an Introverted personality type and blogging was that the niche subject matter I wrote about, coupled with my social anxieties that made reaching out and interacting with other bloggers was the big thing holding me back from growing any faster as a blogger than I am right now. I’m not sure that’s actually the case after spending some time thinking about it.
In the end, I put three times as much energy into my post than might have been necessary because I was worried how it would be received. Because I’m bad at dealing with people and spend too much time worrying about how others seem me. That’s an introvert thing right? and not just a social anxiety thing… is there a difference between the two?
And that certainly is one thing that stops me from growing as a blogger; my anxiousness about reaching out and opening a friendly dialogue with my peers. But it’s absolutely not something I can blame when it comes to my frustrations, because there’s nothing holding me back in that regard other than myself.
I apologise for this being a more rambly kind of post. I guess, the conclusions I ended up coming to were that being either an introvert or an extrovert certainly has an effect on the subject, the content and the ability to promote your work to the rest of the internet at large. But even more than that, I think there comes an inherent self-confidence in your ability to put your message out there without spending time afterwards worried about it.
Which I feel like this entire post ended up being both an exercise in and an example of. I’m likely to lean in the direction of thinking anyone who has a text-based blog is an introvert, given the necessary time and solitude needed to produce the content. But I’m sure there are a thousand examples out there to the contrary, it’s just that I haven’t found them yet, thanks to the fact that I often want to post my post then run across the room and hide under a blanket, never thinking about my post again if I can help it.